Please don't say you're sorry coz you're not

Argh! I'm so frustrated with myself. Everytime I take one step forward, I'll eventually do something to sabotage myself and push myself 7 paces back. Why am I doing this????

Because if I fail again, at least I'd have some solid reason... and only myself to blame

Why can't I stop this obsession??? The very word gives off a negative vibe so shouldn't I be shunning away from you? But I can't... I just don't want to be the one left behind and forgotten. It hurts too much.

I feel like I wanna run and hide... I keep it all locked up inside... But I
just want you to find me..